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I'm watching old re-runs of the original 16 and pregnant.
I thought I was once again over this feeling of emptyness, jealousy and sadness when I watch shows like this, or seeing pregnant women, hearing someone else just got pregnant, seeing people post pregnancy pictures, pictures of their brand new babies, or seeing that girls just had their babies. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for them, but it just reminds me that it's been another 9 months and I'm still not pregnant. I hate feeling like this. I feel like a failure. It makes me feel like I'm not really a woman...

Last night was the first time in 2 cycles that I POAS. I knew it was a horrible idea.