I would just like to say that I've had the best weekend I've had with Jeff since right before we moved! We finally have gotten back on to the same boat again! Our communication has been even more incredible that it normally is, I feel so in tune with him, like I normally do, and I finally feel like I'm home!
It's been a stressful last few months, from moving, to him finding the right pace at work, to finally having a few friends, and this whole fertility doctor/no more diagnostic tests thing!
After we found out that I don't have penis' for fallopian tubes, the rest of the day and into the next was amazing! And then Saturday, I was stumbling baby things on StumbleUpon, something I have not done in over a year, when I asked Jeff if he wanted to go look at all things baby. He instantly said no (his usual response for like three years now- so I don't get my hopes up and then have them crushed when my cycles starts). I kind of got a little sad, but hen realised he was right. After I had came to terms with that, he changed his mind. So off we went! On the way there we had a conversation abouto things we've never really let ourselves talk about with eachother (again, with the getting too excited only for a let down thing), we decided to not worry about, and to celebrate a little! So we talked about whether or not we wanted to find out the sex of our baby, which we both decided not to find out, that is until we started talking about nursery colors and whether or not to buy bedding or make it ourselves, then he decided that we shoudl find out for our first baby, our second one we would hold off on; ) He got excited about clother diapering, the best breast pumps, video baby monitors, cribs, how to pick the best matteress and what type of matteress was the best, car seats and strollers, etc., etc. I was seriously in baby/bliss heaven! We talked about how we were going to tell our families! What we could do to make our lifestyles even healthier, and so much more! It. Was. Bliss.
The next day we went on a date! We spent most of the day exploring a nearby town and browsing through all of the little shops there, sipping on fresh juice from a local juice bar, holding hands, and giggling like it was our first date: ) On our way back home we took the scenic route and ooohed and awwed over beautiful homes and gardens! We ended up finding this amazing gift store, which we probably spent like 2 hours walking though! It was huge! Then we came home and watched the finale of Rachael VS Guy on the food network and he started reading his daddy book (I'm seriously in heaven at this point).
The entire weekend was dedicated to eachother. It was incredible. I feel even more deeply in love with my husband (if that's even possible), closer (if that's even possible), and sooo happy (if that was possible LOL). We're continuing being more in touch with eachother, and it's only been a few days, but it feels even better than ever! I even got him to go to Yoga for Fertility today with me: ) Which to his surprise, he found out he actually really enjoyed: ) He's looking forward to going again next week! And he's even booked an early Valentine's Day Yoga Brunch for us through the center we go to: ) I'm so looking forward to it!!!
Anyways, that's my update: )
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Healthful!
For the last month, I have been sticking to a completely raw diet, with a few modifications, heavy juicing, more tea than coffee and vigerous hot yoga. I would like to say that my skin is FANTASTIC! And I feel amazing! I'm still not sleeping very well though, which was pretty much the entire reason for making this lifestyle change!
I never thought that juicing could be sooo much fun! Seriously! I LOVE making new concotions!
A few of my favorites are:
Apple celery juice- super simple, two apples and a few sticks of celery, sometimes I like to add kale or spinach to this: )
Apple, Beet, Carrot, Ginger juice- pretty self explanatory: )
Apple, cucumber, spinach, Kiwi- one large granny smith apple, half a cucumber, a large handful of spinach, and a kiwi: )
Green lemonade- green apple, half a cucumber, a handful of spinach or kale and half the juice of a lemon, it's so refreshing!
Strawberry Rhubarb- 2 red-ish apples, 10 strawberries, 2 six inch peices of rhubarb and a handful of spinach, if I have pom arils, then a few of those as well!
I don't know what to call this one, but its composed of a peeled grapefruit, and three oranges, and a few nubs of ginger! SOOO good!
I've been trying super hard to do a juice feast for 7 days, but it hasn't worked out. So here's to sticking to it starting tomorrow; )
After I've completed a suscessful juice feast, I will post a few of my favorite raw smoothies: )
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Everything is so lovely: )
So my last update was about my first appointment with our new specialist! At that appointment they did some fun things to my lady parts and we decided our first approach was to start a round of clomid. I finished them last wednesday! We had also set up an appointment for a hysterosalpingogram, which pretty much means we're going to shove a balloon in your cervix and then push radioactive dye in your lady bits to make sure everything flowed correctly and did was it was supposed to do. I can not even tell you how stressed out about that appointment I was. Seriously. I could bearly sleep, eat, or function. I knew that nothing was going to be wrong, but my mind wouldn't let me actually believe that. I'm not kidding when I say, I was pretty sure they were going to find one of three things: 1. That I was a hermaphrodite (not in a realistic, literal sense- more of like they were going to find that I had two penis' where my fallopian tubes should be.. Ask Jeff, this was my main concern for WEEKS). 2. That I was born without fallopian tubes, and 3. They weren't going to be connected to anything.
So yesterday was the big day. It was slightly uncomfortable. I cried for like 20 minutes before the test to the nurse about why I was so nervous about it. I say this a lot in real life, but the ENTIRE staff at this place is FANTASTIC. They go above and beyond to make you feel comfortable, happy, and taken care of! The wonderful nurse that was with me yesterday listened to me cry about possibly have penis' instead of fallopian tubes (which she informed me was highly unlikely), and that my worst fear was getting bad news that would mean putting pregnancy out of our reach to save up thousands of dollars for a few rounds of IVF. As she looked over my chart again, she asked me why I thought that anything could be wrong when there is nothing to indicate any complications in my health or family history; and then, this woman, whom I had never met before, nailed it right on the head: "You've been googling haven't you?" This woman saw right into my soul.
People say this all the time, my husband to me especially, DON'T GOOGLE ANYTHING. After this, I honestly think I will stop.
The end result: Everything is perfectly normal!
I feel like I can breathe! I feel amazingly fantastic! I feel alive again! I feel like I want to go running! AND I HATE RUNNING! THAT'S HOW AMAZING I FEEL!
Also! To add to a little more good news! That same morning, I had my post clomid appintment, to which they saw I have two promising follicles in the making, but they are not as big as they want them to be, so we're playing the waiting game, I go back on monday too see how much they've grown! Wish me luck!!!
And also, I would like to thank my wonderful family and friends for not murdering me from the texts I sent them about how much anxiety I was having! I'd also like to especially thank my husband for not shipping me off to Canada: ) He's been amazing! You all have been amazing!
So yesterday was the big day. It was slightly uncomfortable. I cried for like 20 minutes before the test to the nurse about why I was so nervous about it. I say this a lot in real life, but the ENTIRE staff at this place is FANTASTIC. They go above and beyond to make you feel comfortable, happy, and taken care of! The wonderful nurse that was with me yesterday listened to me cry about possibly have penis' instead of fallopian tubes (which she informed me was highly unlikely), and that my worst fear was getting bad news that would mean putting pregnancy out of our reach to save up thousands of dollars for a few rounds of IVF. As she looked over my chart again, she asked me why I thought that anything could be wrong when there is nothing to indicate any complications in my health or family history; and then, this woman, whom I had never met before, nailed it right on the head: "You've been googling haven't you?" This woman saw right into my soul.
People say this all the time, my husband to me especially, DON'T GOOGLE ANYTHING. After this, I honestly think I will stop.
The end result: Everything is perfectly normal!
I feel like I can breathe! I feel amazingly fantastic! I feel alive again! I feel like I want to go running! AND I HATE RUNNING! THAT'S HOW AMAZING I FEEL!
Also! To add to a little more good news! That same morning, I had my post clomid appintment, to which they saw I have two promising follicles in the making, but they are not as big as they want them to be, so we're playing the waiting game, I go back on monday too see how much they've grown! Wish me luck!!!
And also, I would like to thank my wonderful family and friends for not murdering me from the texts I sent them about how much anxiety I was having! I'd also like to especially thank my husband for not shipping me off to Canada: ) He's been amazing! You all have been amazing!
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
The thing about cat nip...
If my girlfriend ever finds out that I posted this, I may get slapped; ) So I'll change her name: )
This happened about 6 years ago, I like to tell people this story because it's sooo funny: ) My neighbors got a kick out of it the other night: )
So my girlfriend "Michelle" was staying the night in my apartment, which wasn't unusual, since she pretty much lived with me, we'd had WAYYYY too much wine that night and I had just bought a large container of cat nip for Booger. I thought the container would be safe sitting on the counter while we left the kitchen for girl chat in another room. Fast forward like an hour or so and we return to the kitchen, most likely to get more wine, and noticed that the cat, presumably, had knocked the tub of cat nip off the counter and onto the floor. He must have been in cat heaven, because upon impact it had exploded ALLLLLLL over the kitchen floor and there were large voids missing from where I'm assuming he ate/rolled around/hallucinated tiny cat hallucinations. Fast forward a few more hours (during this time, a kid we both had psych classes with, "Noel", came over to drink wine with us) "Michelle" and "Noel" were passed out on the living room floor and I was passed out in my bed. I woke up to a horrific smell and "Michelle" coming in my bedroom and changing out of her skirt. I got up to see what the heck happened, and watched "Michelle" put the skirt she had previously been wearing into a garbage bag and put it outside. Why? BECAUSE THERE WAS SHIT ALL OVER IT. LITERALLY SHIT. There also happened to be a HUGE puddle of diarrhea on the floor where she had been previously laying. So, being the logical bitch that I am, I put two and two together. "MICHELLE" HAD BEEN SO DRUNK SHE SHIT ON MY FLOOR AND DIDN'T EVEN REALIZE IT. Also, being the nice bitch that I am, gave her the option of saying that she had an "accident" and that if she just admitted to it, all would be forgiven. She informed me that she in fact did not shit on my floor and that it was Booger's fault. I told her she was obviously lying. We didn't talk much for the next two weeks because I was so mad that she was lying to me about something that was so petty, and blaming it on my cat, who had a litter box that was 20 feet away and has never had an accident before. I let it go and decided that she must be embarrased about it. And we continued being friends.
Fast forward two years.
Jeff and I were on our way to church one day and thanks to smart phones, I was Stumbling on the way there. As I was stumbling through one of my favorite topics, obviously cats, I came across a page titled 'SIDE EFFECTS OF TOO MUCH CAT NIP", it caught my attention and I soon became engrossed reading what can happen if a kitty ingests too much of it. I'm reading them outloud to Jeff and all of a sudden I stopped talking mid sentance. Jeff looked over at me to see what I am only assuming was a rediculously horrifed look on my face, and asked me what was wrong. All I can remember saying is that I had to call "Michelle" to apologize. Jeff told me I had to wait until after church to call her, and I hesitantly agreed.
I don't remember much about what the topic was in church that day, but it had to do with making ammends I believe. I couldn't wait any longer and I ended up leaving the sancutary to call her and applogize. This is how the conversation went:
Me: I have to tell you that I am soooooo sorry.
Her: For what? What's wrong?
Me: I was just on Stumbleupon and I read an article that said if cats ingest too much cat nip they will have sudden, explosive diarrhea. And I never believed you when you said that you didn't shit on my floor and that Booger did. I thought you were just too embarrased to tell me the truth.
Her: Silence.
Me: I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SORRRRRRRRYYYYYYY.
Her: Britt, that was like 2 years ago.
Me: I know.
Then we both started laughing hysterically.
Then I went back to finish the rest of the service,
The end: )
This happened about 6 years ago, I like to tell people this story because it's sooo funny: ) My neighbors got a kick out of it the other night: )
So my girlfriend "Michelle" was staying the night in my apartment, which wasn't unusual, since she pretty much lived with me, we'd had WAYYYY too much wine that night and I had just bought a large container of cat nip for Booger. I thought the container would be safe sitting on the counter while we left the kitchen for girl chat in another room. Fast forward like an hour or so and we return to the kitchen, most likely to get more wine, and noticed that the cat, presumably, had knocked the tub of cat nip off the counter and onto the floor. He must have been in cat heaven, because upon impact it had exploded ALLLLLLL over the kitchen floor and there were large voids missing from where I'm assuming he ate/rolled around/hallucinated tiny cat hallucinations. Fast forward a few more hours (during this time, a kid we both had psych classes with, "Noel", came over to drink wine with us) "Michelle" and "Noel" were passed out on the living room floor and I was passed out in my bed. I woke up to a horrific smell and "Michelle" coming in my bedroom and changing out of her skirt. I got up to see what the heck happened, and watched "Michelle" put the skirt she had previously been wearing into a garbage bag and put it outside. Why? BECAUSE THERE WAS SHIT ALL OVER IT. LITERALLY SHIT. There also happened to be a HUGE puddle of diarrhea on the floor where she had been previously laying. So, being the logical bitch that I am, I put two and two together. "MICHELLE" HAD BEEN SO DRUNK SHE SHIT ON MY FLOOR AND DIDN'T EVEN REALIZE IT. Also, being the nice bitch that I am, gave her the option of saying that she had an "accident" and that if she just admitted to it, all would be forgiven. She informed me that she in fact did not shit on my floor and that it was Booger's fault. I told her she was obviously lying. We didn't talk much for the next two weeks because I was so mad that she was lying to me about something that was so petty, and blaming it on my cat, who had a litter box that was 20 feet away and has never had an accident before. I let it go and decided that she must be embarrased about it. And we continued being friends.
Fast forward two years.
Jeff and I were on our way to church one day and thanks to smart phones, I was Stumbling on the way there. As I was stumbling through one of my favorite topics, obviously cats, I came across a page titled 'SIDE EFFECTS OF TOO MUCH CAT NIP", it caught my attention and I soon became engrossed reading what can happen if a kitty ingests too much of it. I'm reading them outloud to Jeff and all of a sudden I stopped talking mid sentance. Jeff looked over at me to see what I am only assuming was a rediculously horrifed look on my face, and asked me what was wrong. All I can remember saying is that I had to call "Michelle" to apologize. Jeff told me I had to wait until after church to call her, and I hesitantly agreed.
I don't remember much about what the topic was in church that day, but it had to do with making ammends I believe. I couldn't wait any longer and I ended up leaving the sancutary to call her and applogize. This is how the conversation went:
Me: I have to tell you that I am soooooo sorry.
Her: For what? What's wrong?
Me: I was just on Stumbleupon and I read an article that said if cats ingest too much cat nip they will have sudden, explosive diarrhea. And I never believed you when you said that you didn't shit on my floor and that Booger did. I thought you were just too embarrased to tell me the truth.
Her: Silence.
Me: I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SORRRRRRRRYYYYYYY.
Her: Britt, that was like 2 years ago.
Me: I know.
Then we both started laughing hysterically.
Then I went back to finish the rest of the service,
The end: )
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Exciting!
Good news! I in fact actually have a uterus and functioning (but behind schedule) ovaries!
In a few weeks I get to have dye injected into my lady parts and I start my first round of clomid. We're excited, I'm nervous! For now, everything is in God's hands and of course all the wonderful people's hands of CNY Fertility! Please keep us in your prayers!
In a few weeks I get to have dye injected into my lady parts and I start my first round of clomid. We're excited, I'm nervous! For now, everything is in God's hands and of course all the wonderful people's hands of CNY Fertility! Please keep us in your prayers!
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
My year's resolutions: )
I don't normally make resolutions for the new year, but I normally do not live 3500 miles from where I grew up and I normally am not as fat as I am right now, haha: ) So I've made a list, a long list as a matter of fact, on goals that I would like to accomplish this year. I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't impressed with myself. I would like to say, as being only 3 days into the new year, that I have already been doing a pretty darn good job! On a side note, I've been telling everyone for months now that one of my resolutions was going to be to handmake all of mine and Jeff's clothing this year; I've came to the realization that I was kidding, so I've modified that a bit: ) Anyways, if my 20 readers have not made any of their own resolutions/goals for the year, I hope a few of mine rub off onto you or you can come up with your wonderful own list: )
Go to the gym everyday
Find someplace to volunteer at
Don't eat out (very often)
Make as much of our food as I can from scratch
Eat fruit and vegetables like you're supposed to
Plant a garden
Finish up my mental health degree
Take better care of myself
Become a better Christian
Make a calendar of everyone's birthdays
Handmake most gifts
Practice patience
Floss my teeth everyday
Read at least 2 books a month
Spend less time on FaceBook
Hand write more letters
Build our savings up again
Only purchase needed items
Cherish everyday for what it's worth
Keep intouch with family better
Promote my corchet business more
Go to the gym everyday
Find someplace to volunteer at
Don't eat out (very often)
Make as much of our food as I can from scratch
Eat fruit and vegetables like you're supposed to
Plant a garden
Finish up my mental health degree
Take better care of myself
Become a better Christian
Make a calendar of everyone's birthdays
Handmake most gifts
Practice patience
Floss my teeth everyday
Read at least 2 books a month
Spend less time on FaceBook
Hand write more letters
Build our savings up again
Only purchase needed items
Cherish everyday for what it's worth
Keep intouch with family better
Promote my corchet business more
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